Faith: When you come to the end of all that you know, and you take that first step into the unknown, you have to believe that one of two things will happen-either there will be something to step on or you will be taught to fly.
– Author Unknown
It’s really very simple. Change is hard. Not only can change be really hard (even when it’s good) it can also be really scary. That’s where I’m at. I’m scared.
To say the last six weeks of my life have been a roller coaster would be an understatement. I haven’t talked about it yet, but Matt and I sold our house and bought our first brand-new home together. We couldn’t be more excited for this upcoming change, but of course there is always a little bit of fear that sneaks it’s way in.
Right around the time that I found out we were pregnant with Baby Allerson No. 2 I looked at Matt and said, “where are we going to put this baby?” He looked at me very matter of fact and said, “I thought we were moving.” We had been looking, but nothing had really gotten serious, as we hadn’t found anything that would work for our family. We dreamed of living in southwest Minneapolis by Lake Harriet (my favorite place in the cities), but to realistically take care of our family and provide what they need right now it just wasn’t going to happen.
Matt and I decided that if we weren’t going to fulfill that dream right now…that we would begin looking at new construction in the south metro hoping that it would meet our growing family’s needs. We met with our realtor (a couple of weeks before Christmas) and visited three different locations/builders. We knew immediately that we were most interested in the third location and builder.
One decision made. Our schedules are always “full” but, we found time during the day to visit the chosen site again on Dec. 23. Before leaving that morning, I said a prayer, “Lord, please bring us to the home that we’re supposed to raise our family. Please show me the way.”
The realtor took us to a completely finished home…and I just got a feeling of peace and knew that it was our home. We made our offer the day after Christmas and our home was on the market within one week. It sold in TWO days for more than asking. God opened doors and made a way. We close on both homes Feb. 24. Change No. 1 — check!
For a while I have been thinking that it was time for a career move. Something hopefully closer to home and something that would stretch my creative energy that’s always trying to come out (which is partially how the Linda Project was born). I applied for three positions, got interviews for two, and received one job offer from the University of St. Thomas.
I was a bit shaken. My first instinct was fear. I thought I can’t possibly pursue this. We’re buying a house and I’m having a baby at the end of June. But, for some reason, I couldn’t let it go. I read the job description again and again. Each time I was reminded why I was so interested in the first place. Every logical part of me was telling me to stay safe, stay with what you know, but that’s not how we grow.
I prayed and prayed! God sent me advisers, many of whom told me to take the position immediately, others who shared the same fear that I had. I thought about this for FIVE agonizing days. Can I do this? Can I uproot my personal and professional life at the same time? You know what I came up with? Yes, I can, because I have the Lord on my side directing my path. He’s pushing me out of my comfort zone, and I believe he’s pushing me to my destiny even if I may not be entirely ready.
Sometimes our lives have to be completely shaken up, changed, and rearranged to relocate us to the place we are meant to be.
I saw this quote right before I accepted the position. So, in the next four weeks, I will become a resident of Lakeville, a producer at the University of St. Thomas, and by July a mom of two.
Am I scared? Yes. Do people keep reminding me of all the change? Yes. But, you know what I’m more scared of? Not fulfilling my destiny and my purpose on this Earth. It’s amazing how many doors and opportunities can start opening up, once you trust God and start saying YES. Change No. 2 — check!
Friends, are you dreaming of something new, but you’re scared? God didn’t put that dream in your heart for no reason! Take one small step towards it today, start saying yes, and you may surprised how quickly things start to fall into place.
Blessings to you and your loved ones.
Three items I’m grateful for:
- My co-workers at UMF who have been so supportive.
- Friends who don’t tell me what I want to hear, but what I need to hear.
- New adventures