Give us this day our daily bread… (Matthew 6:11, NKJ)
I was driving into work today and I was actually listening to one of Joel’s podcast, which was all about obedience to God. Listening to that inner voice that is giving us nudges in certain directions even if we don’t always understand the reasoning. I got the nudge today to write about this scripture and what it means to me.
When this Journey of Transformation started for me in January, I was terrified. I was terrified of what each day would bring, what new anxiety I would have, what reaction I would have to a certain medication. Many days, I thought I that I would never make it through the day. As the months went on the days got darker and darker. But, you know what? I did get through them. How? Because God was holding my hand making sure that I had what I needed that day to get through.
Sometimes it would be as simple as a co-worker sending me an early morning text to setup up a coffee date for that morning (thank you, Abbie), or a friend sharing a prayer or a scripture (thank you Ashley and Laura), or my mom calling just at the right time, or running into my aunt at the Como Zoo on the first nice day of spring where there was literally thousands of people, but God knew that I needed her. I honestly could go on and on.
Even on the darkest days (the mornings were always the hardest) I always said a prayer asking God to get me through the day and by His grace, I always did. He knows what we need before we do and he’s working on building the village that we NEED before we even know we need it.
I encourage everyone out there today who is hearing that “inner voice” nudging them in a direction, even if it feels scary, or uncomfortable, or unrealistic to listen to that voice and go for it, because you won’t fail with God on your side. A favorite quote of mine is:
“When we walk to the edge of all the light we have and take a step into the darkness of the unknown, we must believe that one of two things will happen. There will be something solid for us to stand on or we will be taught to fly.” ― Patrick Overton
God is going to be there to help you fly or to help you land on solid ground exactly where you’re supposed to be. Friends, I truly did come to the end of all that I had known and I began questioning everything about myself and of who I was. I was terrified. I was stepping and living in the darkness, but I can say that slowly He’s putting me back together, and soon I’ll either be soaring on a new adventure or standing on solid ground.