It’s so good to be back in front of the computer and connecting with all of our friends and followers again. As Laura mentioned our site was terribly hacked and had to be completely reconstructed, but we are in a better place and it’s right in time for our upcoming maternity leaves! Thanks for being patient with us!
When embarking on a new chapter in life I think it’s natural to go through all of the “what ifs?” What if the marriage doesn’t last? What if motherhood isn’t what I expected it to be? What if this new job is horrible? What if my illness comes back? The list can go on and on. Did you know that anytime you start a thought with “what if” it’s really anxiety rearing it’s ugly head? Most of the time the thought is rooted in fear not reality, but somehow it’s so much easier to think on fear instead of faith.
Now that I’m well into my third trimester and am considered a “high risk” pregnancy, I have been seeing the doctor once a week at minimum for extra scans and tests. I’m so happy to report that every week has been good news, but still the “what ifs?” creep in. I found myself thinking about the opposite of what the doctor was saying instead of embracing the joy of what she had told me. Then it hit me. I can choose what I actually spend my time thinking about, and it doesn’t have to be all of the negative and scary “what ifs?” I could actually let go, yes let go of control and enjoy these last weeks of pregnancy, because most likely this will be our last baby.
Now, I know that it’s not easy to just change our thinking completely. Believe me, I know. But, I feel like I have come completely full circle in this journey of healing, because the tool that I used at the beginning of this journey is the tool that I use now to get rid of the negative and defeating thoughts. I think/meditate/repeat the promise of the Word.
5: Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6: in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
If you’re finding yourself right now in a season of change or having fear in the future, I hope you can find some hope and peace in these words of faith instead of fear. I believe that the Lord will never bring us to something that we can’t handle. I am truly a testimony of this. Last year at this time, I would never have believed anyone if you would have told me that I was going to be 36 weeks pregnant, with a new job, and a new home. I would have thought you were crazy. I never thought I would be able to claw my way out of the darkness, but I have and I believe whatever you’re going through you will come through too. It’s all for a greater reason…we just may not know it yet.
Everyday I work on holding onto the faith instead of fear and I hope you will too.
Blessings to you and your family.
Three items I’m grateful for:
- New beginnings: I’m absolutely loving my new job and home (update coming soon).
- Time spent with family and friends
- Sunshine. It just makes everything better.