Can we just take a moment to talk about the seasons of the year and how amazing they are. Today is what I call my “ideal day.” The sun shining, the cool breeze coming through our windows, football on in the background, autumn candles burning, and chili cooking over the stove. I long for these days.
Everything is transforming. Leaves are changing colors, the air is turning crisp, and we are refocused. I relate our seasons a lot with infertility. Infertility is a season of waiting. For me it seems like it has outlasted its stay, but I also need to make a choice on who I want to be during this waiting period. I could sit in bed and wish time away until this season changes, but what good would that do. I recently read about the active waiting stage in the book, Pregnant with Hope. “God wants us to undergo a deeper, more profoundly life changing transformation than we ever have before. Does that mean all this suffering is punishment? Coercion? Not at all. It’s an invitation. This time of active waiting is a time of opportunity. A blessing-in-disguise. God wants the best for us, so he invests time into the season of preparing you. God is at work in all parts of your life – weeding out the undesirable growth, turning things over, exposing what needs to be uncovered, allowing light and living water to reach what needs nourishment. He sees the infertile parts of your life, and He longs for them to be abundantly healthy.”
This message stuck with me . I’ve learned to trust Him instead of asking Why. I’ve learned that it may not make sense now but that there is a purpose and I will understand His purpose someday. All of this waiting has already led to something bigger. Being a part of the Lindaproject has exceeded anything I thought would’ve come from this journey. We are God’s tools at work and being able to share my voice through this experience has been a special gift. Not everyone is comfortable sharing their feelings on such a private topic, but I know he gave me this voice for a reason. It’s up to us to live each season to it’s fullest, and I pray that you too will find purpose in your seasons of waiting.